Kate

I miss this regal proud stubborn old lady more than I can almost bear. I picked her body up from our vet this am and we took our last car ride together to Rolling Acres...the vet offered to do it but Kate and I needed this last ride together. Now continues those series of heart breaking firsts we go through after a loss. We have already had the first coming home to no Kate, the first feeding of meals without her, the first going to bed and waking up to no Kate. Her empty bed just about killed me this morning. And strangely next to our grief and Atticuses grief, Cecile is the most profoundly lost--she was almost inconsolable last night and up and down all night looking over at Kate's bed. Funny cuz they were never super close...in fact they had some pretty epic battles of will themselves. A few physical scuffles even. Course as Jen reminded me, epic battles of will underscored by fierce loyalty and love were really Katie's love style/love lan guage. Mama aka "Geenah" (we always jokingly said this is what she called me)...mama misses you so goddamn much Kate. So does mama Jen and your pack. We are lost without our hub, our anchor.